I'm ready to change

I woke up to the smell of "stinky soup" knowing that today is the day. It is the start of my cleanse that I had success with before called the Fat Smash Diet. It is not really a diet, but a healthy way of eating and the only way to start that new way of life is to cleanse your body of everything. I am still drinking coffee because it is the safest decision for everyone around me, but everything else that goes in my mouth is a fruit or veggie. Anyway, what is stinky soup you may ask? A tomato base, using V8 & crushed tomatoes with a splash of broth, and every kind of vegetable and bean you have available. I always add cabbage though because that's what makes it stinky...oh and crushed red pepper because if it's spicy, I love it.
I calculated my BMI this morning and I am considered overweight...surprise, surprise. But what really depressed me was seeing that I am .4 away from obesity and that is just sad and unacceptable. People say oh, you don't look it or oh, you're breastfeeding. And thanks for that everyone, but it is time for me to buckle down and take control of my weight. For one, I would definitely be nice and say that to you as well and for two, my boobs don't weigh 20 lbs each....I'm fat. There, I said it. And now I'm ready to change it. I should put my number down here. I should do it. That way it will drive me insane to know that people now just how far I have let myself go. I have never been this heavy....not even anywhere near it....it's a disgrace. 146. My heaviest used to be 130. I was not even this heavy when I first had Madeline.haha, you would think chasing this active little girl around would keep me fit, apparently not.
Cheer me on, don't tell me I'm not fat, believe me, I will appreciate encouragement more then false compliments.
One thing I can say, my husband thinks I'm beautiful and I am both thankful for that and not because it is kind of what has made me accept this. I love him for always putting a smile on my face and I also love that he diets with me....it makes it so much easier when someone else is there to share in your misery.hehe.