Friday, April 29, 2011

This time last year...

We were on our Honeymoon cruise, hoping for a Honeymoon bebe, so we made this small purchase in Dominica on Tuesday of our week long cruise....




Amazing there is a little person here to wear it now, huh?

Dear Pre-teen girls,

    I regret to inform you that Joshua no longer has a cell phone, no longer has access to the home phone and is only allowed to go to school and baseball. The rest of his time will be spent at home, working on assignments and studying. He has made some bad decisions and it was his last chance. Maybe he can try again next school year.
Sincere apologies,
Josh's Mom



I watched some of the Royal Wedding, actually just wanted to see the Queen arrive and the wedding dress. Mission Accomplished. My favorite part....

Her tiara. I loved wearing a tiara on my wedding day and I wish I could wear one every day.
I was up at 5am this morning and now I am exhausted. It wasn't the little one that had me up early....ooooh no....it was Josh who had me in bed late and up at the crack of dawn. Why? Because he failed to tell me about a research paper he had to write. I received an email from his teacher yesterday, he is not handing in assignments....there are a lot of missing assignments. I was fuming. Then I called the teacher and she said he also needed to have his research paper in tomorrow. I think smoke was coming out of my ears. He was lucky I found this out around noon and I had time to cool off. When he came home I ripped apart his book bag...what an awful mess. Before baseball I sent him upstairs to START the research for the research paper. Then we had baseball, got home around 8 and he worked on it for a couple more hours. I sent him to bed and swooped in to save the day. I now know more about Saudi Arabia than I ever really wanted to know. Some interesting facts from my research: 5.5 of the 26.1 million are non-citizens, the most commonly grown fruit is date-palms and English is their 2nd language and even taught in schools. Yep, I got my research on and put together a fact sheet for Josh to start on the paper. I woke him up at 5am and he worked on it up until he left for the bus at 7:30....I guess I showed him! Not really, though. I didn't have time for true correction of the behavior, we only had a limited amount of time to get this entire paper done. I sure hope he is as exhausted as I am, but either way he is now punished. I have taken away his cell phone, the home phone, outside privileges, PS3 and pretty much everything else except baseball. And he has the nerve to catch an attitude that he is punished. KIDS! Grrr! They need to stay tiny and cute forever. That is all.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

3rd time is a charm?

I just got a little sad looking at my facebook album with Madeline's monthly pictures. She has changed so much. I can't help but want to press the rewind button and go back 3 months. But, I know there are so many wonderful things to come and I am looking forward to them!

Last November, right before Thanksgiving, I stood on our top deck while pregnant and watched a town home in our community burn to the ground. It had to be one of the most devastating things I have ever seen. I woke up that morning and heard pounding accompanied by yelling, "FIRE! FIRE! GET OUT!". It sounded like it was right next door. I looked out the front, nothing. Then ran to the back, still nothing. But, I could hear it. So, I stepped out on our top deck and heard the smoke detectors going off like they were right in front of me and realized the banging and yelling was coming from down the hill. I could see the man running and banging on all the doors. There was a feeling that came over me like I had never felt, but being very pregnant there was not much I could do. About 10 minutes after the banging, yelling and  smoke detectors still going off, I start to hear sirens. Faint at first, then louder and louder. The smell finally hit, it smelled strange, but no smoke. The fire engines pulled up and went to work....breaking windows and chainsawing the roof. Then the smoke bellowed up the hill. I cried....for the family that lost their belongings, for the deceased dog I heard them talk about, for the fact it was almost Thanksgiving and this family lost everything. I called the community office and asked if there was anything I could do, clothes, a turkey, anything. The office did not want to release any information to me. But, later called and said not to worry, their insurance company was already on it.


Two weeks ago, I heard sirens. Anthony and Josh had left for a baseball game, so this made my heart jump in my throat. I went out on the deck while holding Madeline and looked down, there were fire engines at the golf course office. Then the smoke cloud came up the hill, with the same smell as before and I ran in with Madeline. I heard the chainsaws and window breaking as I watched from closed doors. This time it was an apartment.

Before I explain the next part I need to give a back story on our neighbors to the left of our town home. It is a family of four, Husband/Wife/Toddler/Baby, with 3 Labradors ( I adore Labradors) and their cars have California plates....that's all we know to this day. When they first moved in, I knocked on the door with a plate of muffins. The man looked out the window at me and didn't answer the door. STRANGE. A few months later, the woman was out with one of the kids, I said "Hi! How are you?". She just looked at me. EVEN MORE STRANGE. Well, after I told Anthony this he has completely ignored them and that was that. All I can think is that maybe they are having a house built and will be moving soon, so choose not to waste time with us?? Who knows.

This morning I'm feeding Madeline and I hear smoke detectors going off. Maybe someone is cooking and that's what it was? Well, it goes on for about 10 minutes....more than one going off. Then I start to panic. I run out on the deck and it sounds like the neighbors. So, I grab Madeline and run out front. I run to the left and it sounds like their house, but to make sure I keep running past them to the end house. Nope, it's definitely the one right next to us. Both of their cars are there, so I am panic stricken that they are in the house, passed out or dead, who knows. I RUN up to the door and POUND on it like I'm the police. The man answers the door in nothing but some briefs and I yell "Are you guys OK??!".  He looks at me and says, "Yeah, we can't get them to stop." I hear his wife's loud, annoyed sigh in the background and then the door slams in my face. Nice. So, that's 3 times these damn people have made me feel like the village idiot. Not cool.
So, for the next 2 or 3 hours the detectors would go off for 20 minutes at a time and I couldn't help but snicker at their frustration. That's what you get for being so damn RUDE!
I guess I would much rather that be the 3rd time they were rude to me rather than the 3rd fire I witnessed though.
I really don't think I ever have a normal day.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Happy 3 months, Madeline!

WOW! I can't believe you are 3 months already. It feels like yesterday since I was carrying you inside; wondering what you would look like and what kind of baby you would be.
In these 3 short months you have become the best thing since sliced bread in our home and family, Mommy, Daddy and Josh can't get enough of you!...along with the rest of our families.
It has been a busy month, baseball fields, Baptism, Easter and you were wonderful through it all.
You recognize our voices. If someone else is holding you and you hear Daddy, you look for him. As soon as Josh comes home from school you hear him and smile.

You LOVE being around people, family parties and shopping are your favorite things to do right now. You smile on que when an old lady comes up to talk to you and that just makes their day! We love when you share your smile, it's too cute not to!




You have a new found fascination with your hands, looking at them for long periods of time, as if they were the most amazing thing you have ever seen.
                                  
And when you are done inspecting, you devour them.......


You reach for things and think you can grab things that are very far away, like the ceiling fan. You are infatuated with ceiling fans, at home, in restaurants, at other people's homes. We laid you on Me-mom's bed at Easter on a few occasions and you watched the fan for 30 minutes at a time.


You are starting to know what you like and what you don't like. You like to watch your mobile, but only during the day....

You love to be held, but not the cradle way and you will make yourself stiff as a board until the person holding you realizes that you want to be on their shoulder......




Your bedtime ritual includes being swaddled, your Nuk and your ocean noises. That's it. You have no desire to be rocked, you just want to be put in your crib like that and you fall asleep on your own.
                                     
                                         Swaddle + Nuk
+
Ocean Sounds
=
Instant sleeping baby


You sleep a solid 8, wake up to nurse for 5-10 minutes, then go right back to sleep for another 5. There are times at night when we miss you and want to go in and wake you up.....how silly is that? You have that affect on us.

Sitting in your bouncy seat, looking at your hands, as I type this....you have to be the most content baby around!


We are going to have professional pictures taken tomorrow, but you know Mommy has to make her little number and do her own photo session..........








Hehe! I know Daddy's going to say you look like the Black Swan, but I love it!!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

What not to say to a fat girl

We had a wonderful Easter and Anniversary.
1st Anniversary traditional gift is paper, so I got Anthony Phillies tickets. That is also what I gave him as a wedding present, so it only made sense. He said my paper gift was a card, so he also gifted black and white diamond earrings...very pretty and very unexpected.
I still made Josh get up and do the early Easter Bunny thing....minus the jelly bean trail. We actually got out of the house early too and made it to my Mom's brunch then to Me-moms. Madeline was a little angel the entire day....even though she was so hot we ended up stripping her. It was a very warm Easter, that hasn't happened in a while.



Anthony took off on Easter Monday and we had such a nice day. I wanted to go to the zoo, but they were calling for t-storms. So, we went to the outlets instead. Not a storm in sight, but had we gone to the zoo it would have been a different story for sure! My husband cracks me up sometimes. Everyone knows him as a funny guy, the life of the party. I wish you could see his other side...it cracks me up more than the funny guy sometimes. We were having lunch and I took a pepper and went to squeeze it on my salad. Well, instead of squirting my salad, it squirts him. He acted like I had just accidentally fired a loaded gun at him![drama queen?]..then proceeds to tell me that it's no laughing matter, pepper juice is a serious thing and it could have got him in the eye. My point? It didn't!! Therefore it's funny! Then, he gets so angst up that I am going to forget to tell the waitress to stop grating Parmesan cheese over my pasta that he stops her for me. Those are the kinds of things that stress him out....and I'm not supposed to find them funny? Well, I do. AND I just laughed typing about it. I just adore him and his silly quirks.

Well, I also thought it was hilarious how many family members and friends thought I styled Madeline's hair the way it is. Nope, that's her natural 'do.
I push it down.....


And it comes right back up.....


That's her signature style I guess. I love it, though....it makes her unique. We hear people in stores, on walks, every where...."Look at that baby's Mohawk!". It's awesome.

I really wanted to devour these peanut butter eggs my Mom made this morning....I had one on Easter and they were amazing. But, instead I was a good girl and I made an alternative to it....


I'm thinking that probably wasn't much better. But, I felt better afterwards. Apples and PB just sounds so much more healthy than Chocolate and PB. Right? I really am trying, but somewhere throughout the day I lose control. I'm no dummy, I know I'm a fat girl post-baby. I've calculated my BMI, I'm overweight... and actually, I'm 1.8 away from OBESE! Am I cool with that? NO. Was it worth it? YES. Will I get back to how I was? I sure hope so!
So, I'm out walking the dog the other day while holding Madeline and I saw someone from the neighborhood. She came over to see the baby, then asks how I'm feeling. I say, "Great!...if only I could drop these extra 15 lbs.".   What not to say to a fat girl?   "Yeah girl, then if only you could give them to me." 

I'm already honest with myself, do you really need to be that honest with me? AND hearing that you want to gain 15 lbs just really pissed me off.
Anyway....I went walking tonight with the Hubs and Madeline. She loved it.

There's my fat a$$....that's right.... I AIN'T SCURRED.





Sunday, April 24, 2011

Jelly bean trail

Happy Easter everyone!!

My memories of Easter are waking up to find that the Easter Bunny had left a jelly bean trail, the jelly bean trail lead to my Easter basket. I loved Easter because of this. So, I followed this tradition and the E.B. would lay out a jelly bean trail for Joshua also.
There is no jelly bean trail this year, we are taking a break, because next year we will be in full E.B. mode again....and Josh realizes that, so I figured I would give him a break from my cheesiness this year. Instead, here is my sophisticated jelly bean message for the family.....

Our 1st Anniversary happens to fall on Easter this year . We also got engaged on Easter, so it is a pretty special holiday for me. Our engagement is something that will be fresh in my mind forever. My husband is so creative. I told him of the jelly bean trail that I always loved as a child and he remembered this. When I arrived at my Me-mom & Be-pop's they had a jelly bean trail set up for me. I thought it was super strange that my Grandparents did this for me, but I had moved from Md to Pa and I thought they were so sad by that and they decided to do this for me. So, I went with it. (You can tell by the video how embarrassed I am that they did this though). I followed the trail and there were little gifts along the way. 1st was a charm for my Pandora bracelet. 2nd was a heart necklace. 3rd was a glass egg, I opened it to find a ring and turned around to see Anthony on his knee. I teared up just typing this. It is something I will never forget. My cousin, Susan, didn't know what was going on, but she pressed the record button on her camera and I'm so glad she did!


The next April, we had our Wedding Day that I will never forget. Anthony surprise serenaded me there. My husband is wonderful, full of surprises.



And now, here we are .... one year later ... and next week would be when we were on our Honeymoon...where little Madeline was conceived. Amazing what can happen in 2 years.


Thursday, April 21, 2011

Tablecloth

I've been a little annoyed today.

I will never understand why Pa has a "state store" and a "liquor store". Why are they separate? If you are going to separate anything, shouldn't it be the beer & wine from the liquor? And why do the state stores only sell HUGE amounts of beer? Well, honestly, I only know of 2 state stores and they both only carry beer in large quantities....not including Wegmans. I did not want wine tonight, I wanted a couple Yuengling...but getting a 6 pack is unheard of in this state. So, not to be an idiot after I walked into the state store I had to buy the case of Yuengling. I'm a wine girl, so it's going to take a long time to drink these beers.

At every one of Josh's baseball games there is this one Dad that stands at the fence and blocks the view of the plate. Errr...why not just ask if you can sit in the dugout? I'm sure they'd let you! Well, tonight, there were 5 people blocking my view, so I was extra annoyed....including 2 guys that came and seriously stood right in front of me and TALKED to each other instead of watching the game....REALLY? They finally moved when I kept loudly moving all of my things closer and closer.

Something that did make me chuckle though...I was getting my red tablecloth out of the dryer and I couldn't stop laughing. Why? I came home on Saturday night and my brother, Joey, was sleeping on the couch. I was getting something from the kitchen and I guess I woke him up. He stood up and wrapped his blanket around him. "Ummmm Joey? Why are you in your boxers with my tablecloth wrapped around you?". He thought it was a sheet. Hilarious....or maybe you just had to be there.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

What the [double] fudge?!

Today was unique.
It was a half day for Josh, so we went out for a Subway lunch (Josh's fav) and then to the grocery store. Josh was very excited to see I brought coupons...."Mom, when did you start using these??!!". haha. I think this brought him hope that the store would not be so boring, instead it was now like a scavenger hunt!
Behold...the holder of coupons...
There were a lot of older folks at the Giant today, so Madeline was in her glory. Older women and men get a kick out of her hair do. We had a few that just wanted someone to talk to.
[L.O.L. = Little Old Lady]
L.O.L.: "Can you believe hot dogs are $5?" *shakes head*
Me: "No, that is ridiculous."
L.O.L: "Well, there's nothing I can do about it." *frowns and throws hot dogs into her cart*
Me: *quickly fanning through coupons as she walks away* "WAIT! Are those Ball Parks?"
L.O.L.: "Why yes, they are."
Me: *hands hot dog coupon*
I swear and you can ask Josh, she got tears in her eyes and told me that was the nicest thing anyone has done in a while. Wow.
Josh's thoughts: This lady loves coupons
My thoughts: Coupons bring joy to everyone.
Just kidding! I explained to Josh as we walked away that she was just genuinely touched that someone had taken the time to help her out.
Shortly after, I had another L.O.L. grab me by the arm to tell me how beautiful my children were. She then proceeded to tell me a sad story of how she loved children and tried to have a baby for 35 years. :( 
As we were leaving I noticed the Freedom Village bus outside. Ooooh, it was the day they loaded up the old folks home and carted them to Giant. It all made sense.

I decided to get the mail today, it had been a while. There was A LOT of mail. I noticed one envelope that said Maryland SafeZones Automated Speed Enforcement. Oh no. That had to be something that was my fault. I tried to peer through the envelope, but did not want to open it...then that would be like admiting guilt of some sort. I knew I hadn't ran a red light or been pulled over, but I was not going to take that chance and open the incriminating paper. Instead I made Double Fudge Cupcakes ...thinking THIS will soften the blow of whatever citation I had gotten myself into.hehe.

Well, Anthony opened it and I have been caught speeding by a speed monitoring system (WTF??), but was not upset...thanks to said cupcakes.hehe. I think I was a little more upset then he was actually. That's crazy. I was only going 72mph on Rt. 95...people have been know to fly by me going at least 90! So, I guess they must get a lot of these tickets?? But, after looking the citation over I noticed that (1) It was in a work zone, so the speed limit is lowered to 55 & (2) This is an overdue notice, so I must have overlooked the 1st notice. Oops!
Yeah, so I am not a happy camper with Maryland's sneakiness! If a copper doesn't catch me, it's not fair to say it happened!
In the words of Josh: Ain't that right, Maddie?!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Fat girl Confession

So, I have been trying to stay away from sweets and junk foods to lose a couple lbs. Therefore I have not been buying any sweet/junk foods. I will make cookies once a week for Josh and Ant, but I try to stay away.
But tonight, even while watching Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution, I broke down. The only thing in the house is Coconut M&M's and I am not a fan. So, what did I do? I ended up dipping pretzel rounds into rainbow chip frosting. And I am embarrassed that I just shared that.goodbye.
*hangs head in shame*

Stop & smell the Baby's breath

We had such a wonderful weekend. Had a blast at the Beef and Beer with some awesome people. It's been a long time since I've had beer....so I enjoyed quite a few.hehe. There were raffles and prizes, a DJ, so we danced a few dances....and Cindy even won a half priced DJ! Can't wait for that party.
*Warning: Boob  content* Afterwards was not so wonderful for me.... my milk makers were screaming by the end of the night. Mom picked up Madeline at 3 and I didn't see her again until 11 and got home around 12. And of course I was not about to feed her after having some beers. So, I had to break the pump out...which for some reason did not really help. All I know is, for now on I am bringing that pump everywhere.

Sunday was amazing. Madeline was amazing. She did not make a peep the entire day. This baby is wonderful. *knocks on wood* She hardly ever cries. She even smiled a big smile when they poured the water over her head.





She was content as she was passed around the entire day. Almost as if she knew it was all about her, she enjoyed every second of it. We were so proud.

Yesterday was Be-pop's 81st birthday. Anthony was off and I kept Josh home from school. So, we treated him to his favorite, breakfast, at Bob Evans. It was nice, of course any time with our grandparents is.
Last night we had an Orioles game, I wish they could have stayed for that. It was a long one though, 19-1 in the 3rd, in our favor, but it's hard to see any team down by that many runs. I carried Madeline back and forth as we watched the entirely long game because one of the Dad's always stands and blocks the view of the plate.
2 whole days of carrying Madeline and my arms and back feel like I just did a Body Pump class!

I have such a happy baby in the morning! Madeline wakes up smiling ear to ear..ready for me to talk and sing to her. After that busy weekend, I had to take a minute to stop and smell her beautiful baby breath. I just LOVE the smell of baby's breath!...it's my little addiction. I need to bottle it into a perfume, so I can keep that smell forever. May sound crazy, but come smell her or any baby's breath, then you will know what I'm talking about!



Heard some disturbing news this morning, a good guy I used to work with was arrested for being in a Rx drug ring. Shocked and disturbed is how I feel about it. But, it's a shame, that is a sign of the times...unfortunately. I saw a status I know referred to him and it said, "Don't judge someone because of the decision they made...bcuz truthfully we don't know why they made that decision. God works in mysterious ways to get us to listen. Decisions/Mistakes...it doesn't matter. Worry about your own inner self, b4 you start thinking about someone elses.".  Exactly. You never know what someone else is going through and why they do things. It may have been their only way to put food on the table or even move and get their own place again after a rocky time in their life. As Ant said when I told him, "Easy cash gets you caught up". I can see that being true too. So, I'm saying a prayer for him and his family during this horrible time in their lives. You never realize just how much making a little cash the wrong way can ruin your life.






Saturday, April 16, 2011

I'm not gonna lie...

First, who designs a white kitchen? The jerk that designed these town homes is probably sitting back and having a good laugh right now. People that do not cook or spend much time in their kitchen may find it feasible, but for someone like myself who cooks breakfast, lunch and dinner it is ridiculous. There is no way to keep it clean...I scrubbed and scrubbed and came to that conclusion. And who doesn't design a walk-off the back deck? It's just a closed-in upper and lower deck with a nice area behind it. Why wouldn't they think to have an opening and some steps down to the grass? Again, the jerk is laughing. Laughing because we are renting from this community for almost $1700 a month. Oh, and there is carpet AT the front door. Yes, no foyer or anything of the sort....carpet that gets dingy/dirty from everyone coming in and out, even with the runner I have put there. Seriously, I want to poorly design town homes on a golf course and charge people $1700 a month to live in them. We are here and renting partly because we are so indecisive about where we are going to permanently plant our roots. My husband gets upset when I complain, which is understandable, because of how much he pays every month for us to live here. Sorry honey.
I'm not gonna lie.... I miss Maryland. I miss the people....or should I say having people. I miss wanting to see my Me-mom & Be-pop and hopping in the car for a 5-10 minute drive to see them. I miss having friends. I miss having one of my best of friends living next door ::thinks:: if I were there right now, I'd call her and she would come outside to talk, even though it's past midnight. I miss that. I miss my Dad and my Mom and my awesome little brother, Joey. I miss everything.... calling people up to have lunch, stopping by some one's house, running into people I know, knowing the right places to go, everything. Now that I'm a stay at home Mom, I  have time to think and it just now sunk in that I miss these things.
I had a chance, you know, to come back to Maryland. Anthony wanted to move us back before the baby, almost as if he knew these feelings would kick in. But I declined. I couldn't take Josh out of school and move him again. He just developed relationships and I couldn't bare uprooting him again. I also knew that Anthony wouldn't be happy, he said he wouldn't care, but I knew living in Md would irk him.
If my boys aren't happy, I'm not happy.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Sixteen socks

I've used a coupon here and there before, if it was a good one. But, yesterday was the first time I really used coupons at the grocery store. I decided that I may as well try it...since I'm not working and all. Don't get me wrong, my husband makes really good money, I just thought the savings could help..even if just a few bucks. It was AOL that inspired me. On the ads the other night there was a printable coupon site...I don't even have to clip?? I CAN do this.
So, I'm in the cereal aisle yesterday, getting frustrated with my coupons already while trying to find this damn cereal when a young, Hispanic woman says something to me I have trouble understanding. So, I ask her to repeat and she asked what cereal she could buy with WIC. At first I said I didn't know, but then I looked and all the cereals that are approved have "WIC approved" under the shelf label, so I showed her. I felt really good that I had helped her....then I started wondering why she would ask me of all the other people in the aisle. Then it occurred to me...my printable coupons look just like her WIC checks, so I look like I'm walking around the store looking for WIC items, not coupon items.haha. I'm NOT saying there is anything wrong with that, I just thought it was funny...I already feel cheap with my coupons and now...well.eh.
I was happy when I got up to the register though! My total went from $68 to $37...extreme couponing anyone?? I felt pretty awesome about that. So awesome I called Anthony at work. HAHA!
YAY COUPONS!


I just dropped something under the couch, so I lean down to get it. Well, I see a sock too. Then another. SIXTEEN socks later I just want to explode.
Oh living with boys is grand.