TWO months left

Alright, all this damn room in my ginormous belly and this kid wants to hang out in my ribs. It's only when I'm sitting though, so obviously I'm being told to get my ass up and start preparing. TWO months left and I haven't done a single thing. We do have clothes...that's a good thing. Oh, and we bought a new bassinet. The vibrate option on Madeline's was a life saver and it stopped working towards the end there, so I couldn't be without a vibrating bassinet. Perhaps I will put it together, then that will give me inspiration on other things. Although, Madeline thinks the baby is in the bassinet box...man is she going to be confused. She does know the baby is in my belly (hell, we've been to enough ultrasounds) and now, obviously, everyone has a baby in their belly...it only makes sense. But, for some reason, she keeps going back to the bassinet box and asking to open and get the baby out. haha.

I love this little pistol.

Today is different from yesterday. There is still a lot of sadness, but I'm not sobbing. I also haven't had to talk about it today, so that may help. I woke up with my face hurting from all the crying. Putting away the dog bowls was hard. And noticing all the food Madeline drops just stays there. There is nothing under my feet, tripping me as I cook. And I made a tiny omelet out of the leftover french toast egg, like I always do, only to realize she wasn't here to eat it. There was no reason to open the back door and see how cold it was outside. There isn't anyone sitting by my side during nap time. Ugh. It is painful. But, today is not as bad as yesterday, so I know it will get better.

Well, I made something from Pinterest yesterday. A very easy meal called Take Out, Fake Out Beef and Broccoli from the crockpot.  It was amazing. Definitely tasted like take-out to me! Super easy to make, throw everything in the crockpot and bam! Dinner is served! Next time I will take a more flattering picture...this was straight from my iphone, right before dinner and I hadn't eaten much all day, so I was STARVING...which means the picture was snapped and we were off to say grace and shove it in our mouths within seconds. Hmmm...I wonder if it was so good because I was that hungry... I'll have to ask my husband.

Don't judge by the picture, just make it.